I come to realize this early morning without sleep that no matter how many times I have tried to find true love somehow I seem to fail at it.
I also realize that Brice must be one hell of a man in ways I am not. He has to be better looking, a better lover, more attentive to your needs
he must give you more affection, he must be a great guy to be in love with over all and I guess no matter what, I am the loser here.
I will never bother you again as I am dead to you as dead as I was as a boyfriend. I thought I was doing everything for you that I needed to but once again I am a loser in the game of love. I was once a cold heart ed deliberate soldier of a man and I was good at that and yet I am to old even for that.
I give up on love for ever and a day and I give up on you. I bid you goodbye and I wish you the best in life without me as you wished. I will go back to being cold and uncaring as that's the easiest way for me. As soon as the economy gets better I will sell the house I bought for you and your kids and get away from New England as I stayed here only for you , your kids and Lindsie. I Thank you for all the good times and bad you allowed me to share with you and your kids. Love may be great in some folks life but Love has no place for me and apparently never has. I never meant to hurt you or make you feel guilt or sadness or anything negative I am only human and I had feelings too. I really thought we would be together till the end and tried so hard to convince you it was suppose to be after you left but you are your own person and you decided I was not the man you loved. Even though I will probably never understand what happened there must be a lesson or two here somewhere.
I was always told that one has to love themself before they can love another but even that failed me. Goodbye to the one woman I truly loved and goodbye to love all together. I truly wish you the best in all aspects of life. I will not call , write, or even answer the phone if you call as I am dead to you as you wished. Best wishes, may all your dreams come true. Reaper
I also realize that Brice must be one hell of a man in ways I am not. He has to be better looking, a better lover, more attentive to your needs
he must give you more affection, he must be a great guy to be in love with over all and I guess no matter what, I am the loser here.
I will never bother you again as I am dead to you as dead as I was as a boyfriend. I thought I was doing everything for you that I needed to but once again I am a loser in the game of love. I was once a cold heart ed deliberate soldier of a man and I was good at that and yet I am to old even for that.
I give up on love for ever and a day and I give up on you. I bid you goodbye and I wish you the best in life without me as you wished. I will go back to being cold and uncaring as that's the easiest way for me. As soon as the economy gets better I will sell the house I bought for you and your kids and get away from New England as I stayed here only for you , your kids and Lindsie. I Thank you for all the good times and bad you allowed me to share with you and your kids. Love may be great in some folks life but Love has no place for me and apparently never has. I never meant to hurt you or make you feel guilt or sadness or anything negative I am only human and I had feelings too. I really thought we would be together till the end and tried so hard to convince you it was suppose to be after you left but you are your own person and you decided I was not the man you loved. Even though I will probably never understand what happened there must be a lesson or two here somewhere.
I was always told that one has to love themself before they can love another but even that failed me. Goodbye to the one woman I truly loved and goodbye to love all together. I truly wish you the best in all aspects of life. I will not call , write, or even answer the phone if you call as I am dead to you as you wished. Best wishes, may all your dreams come true. Reaper
